Secret love

*From now on, I won't blog so formally. They look so serious!

Well..where should I start? I think I shall start at the beginning...
I have a crush. On someone I had blogged about her a month ago.
Yup, that's her.

It's odd, isn't it?
Moments ago I said I hate love life, but now I'm falling in love with somebody.
Seriously, I still hate love life. It makes me feel like suffering and cannot concentrate on anything.
But what to do?
Once the feeling comes to me, I can't resist.

She's the girl I admire since I first saw her.
Yes, love at first sight is true.
She has every detail I wish for
..except for her height ==
Ah, never mind that.

About a few weeks later, I started not to think about her
because I want a break.
Well~not actually
I thought I suck at love life (which I really am) therefore decided not to get in anymore.

Until...I found her blog.
Using my old method, I searched for her blog.
So efficient, I must say. =D
The first thing I saw is her cute photo. So pretty and cute.
I definately love it. ^^

I read all her blog posts.
What, it's only 40 something entries. Haha`
Love her every posts.
(Unlike this fucking school, where ppl blog also wanted privacy ==)
After that, left a message.
Wish to remain anonymous in there.

Today, I realized I really love her
when I suddenly doodled in my exercise book about how much I miss her.
Spending the whole day thinking of her.
Sucks, hate that feeling so much.

I won't confess to her, you gotta know.
Because I guess she won't like it
I read 1 of her posts saying she's too young for relationships.
Maybe you readers will think that I'm silly, stupid,
Whatever.
She will be my secret love.

Single balik

Single back.

Not me, my sis larh. I never had a gf, use your logic la.

When she told me inadvertently that she broke up with his Form 5 bf, I felt like wanna kill her. Why? Because she had 4 relationships, 3 bfs, and none of them even lasted long!

This time, 2 and a half months and their relationship is over. She said the reason she broke up with her is because not to waste everyone's time. Like, WTF? I have no idea. But this is their problem and I should not interfere. The best thing I can do is to comfort her like other friends did.

Well, at least she doesn't do those horrible things to herself. Ugh, so gruesome.

Despite the fact I'm angry, I also felt sorry for her. She spent a whole year in these relationships and it's proven fruitless. Hope she will feel better during this single period.


Lots of Hate and Love,
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Boring

Don't know why, these days I feel so boring.

Not that I don't have anything to do, sometimes I'm not in the mood or just too lazy to do something. Play piano play until sienz, games also boring, tv shows so lame, sigh.

So I end up sleeping all day, dunno what to do.

Sienz.

War (and an open reply to MF)

This is actually a continuous post from the last one.

I sensed that I will get into trouble in school before that. Obviously it's all about my last post. The girls I've mentioned here saw my new post, read it, and got angry. Angry because I linked them from my blog. They claimed that they need privacy. How odd, I thought link a few of them will make them happy because it'll boost their readership (maybe 1 or 2).

No, I won't delete my previous entry nor my blog that you are reading. If they want privacy, simply lock their precious blog. I believe they have done it.

Let's begin with this pathetic school day and how I survived from the words she spat on me...

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It's been a hot day before the school started. I rushed into the library which is equipped with air-con to continue with my homework. After that, we had a short assembly. Despite the whether being as hot as it could, that bloody teacher ordered us to sit down on the freaking hot and dusty floor. It looked like everyone's buttock has been cooked!

10 minutes later, our lessons began —it was just like another ordinary day, except that I was tired. The same old Science class, almost making me dozed off.

Moral class — the same shitass lesson, the same teacher teaching...sienz.

Recess time — Ah..the thing I was predicting finally came. (Not to say the high-class word 'predict' — I am not a predictor.) Min Fen (if you say I'm not allowed to say your name out, let's just short-form the name — MF) walked unexpectedly towards my desk, where I was seen packing my books.

She began her talk with me politely: "Do you know why I want to find you?"

*Now, the fireworks. I'm quite sure my fellow friends and those people supporting MF who don't know a shit about our conversation — no, more like a argument, are damn excited to read the following lines of words.

I left my lame and useless self-defending speech out. What you'll read below are her main actual words — translated to English. Ok, I admit I'm too lazy to blog in Mandarin!

Why the hell you wanna do it? (And the motherfucking loud voice boomed out from her throat, almost making my eardrums burst. If you cannot imagine that, it's like those aunties in the market bargaining with the meat seller, only much louder.) You know Kar Yan doesn't want you to know her blog's existence, then why the fuck you wanna search it out? And you let tomyam read her blog somemore! (Eh babe, I didn't dammit tell tomyam about this!) You know how to respect ppl's privacy onot?! (Woon Ling and Puoi Wen came and told her to relax. No thanks for interrupting her speech, gals. And MF replied softly: "I'm scolding for myself." She continued.) I tell you, Shio Kee know my blog also, so why you still wanna tell people about my blog? You yong shui then can liao, you still dunno how to respect ppl's privacy?! (Ah..now you say it.) I tell you, you better be careful bit ar. (Ready to get away, saw Shi En and finished her last sentence.) Now, I HMF, with Sxxx Shi En no relationships liao!! (Went away.)

Now, I want to make an open reply to her lecture (and other readers who want my explanations) :

Dear MF (I don't want to say this but it's the format!), bet your feeling is still unwell while reading my fucking entry.

First thing I wanna clarify is why I never defend much of myself when you were happily scolding me. Well, I suck at talking and you talked so fast that I can't interrupt. But I'm good at blogging! So I can reply everything here. Another reason is I want to listen attentively to your warning, your scolding, whatever in order to note it down in this very blog entry. Clear? Ok!

Secondly, I'm sorry to say that I haven't read your message in my chatbox before school. That means I was not preparing for a "counter attack" of the event you were planning for me. This explains further about I was totally unprepared when you step in my classroom.

Thirdly, I wish to comment back to your comment about me above.

The 1st main thing you mentioned in our talk is PRIVACY. Huh? What privacy? Privacy in the bathroom — that's common sense because you dun wanna let others see your penis or boobs, right? But privacy in blogs — I'm still a bit blur. (Hey, even the cleverest person in the world gets blur sometimes, izzit?) Like, WTF? If you wanna involve yourself in the blogosphere, there is actually no privacy. What I mean is, you won't have much privacy because internet surfers out there will do some random searching in Google when they're bored. And if they coincidentally
click in your homepage, will you sue them of not respecting privacy? The judge will probably think :"What in the world is that idiot raving about?" Of course, you haven't decide of sueing me, right? I mean, did I do something against the law?

Sorry that I've gone too far. =)

One more thing. If you say that Shio Kee, Kar Yan and your fellow 2D friends knew all about your blog, surely it won't harm much to tell some of my friends about that?

If you really don't want people to search for your blog, for god sake don't let search engines find your blog. Uncheck it!

2nd main thing. You say I'm yong shui (that means UGLY). Yes, I look like shit, no doubt about that. Everyone knew. Well, how about YOU? You look much the same as me too. :)

3rd. You asked me to be CAREFUL. Don't worry, I will. Who knows, next time a banana peel lay comfortably in front of me, waiting me to step on it. And everyone will say it was an 'accident'.

Since I'm out of things to reply, this is something you might wanna know:

This time you win, next time I doubt so.

Next time you came, I will counter.

Thanks for reading this long reply. If you wish to start another row, just do it. This school is always a battlefield, I declared war, therefore I shall continue.

p.s / My friend's classmate heard that Shi En's bf said "serves me right" after that argument. Yes, I deserved to get mad by some mad people, but I like it. Haha.

p.s 2 / The next day I didn't go for school is not because I'm a coward. I thought that day will combine class, so I didn't go for everyone sake.

Now I regret for not going for party. :(