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I am scared that she would misunderstand me for having Wendy as my girlfriend,
It's not like this would matter much because she doesn't know I'm loving her, or to be straightforward, she doesn't love me,
But still, I feel depressed when I think about that.
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This post is about her, again.
Today, when my teacher mentioned Wendy's name because she wanted her number,
all the sampat girls in the class, including her, teased and laughed like mad.
I know, they all thought that Wendy is my gf, just because every Saturday I walk with her to the tuition center.
Like, to them, it was a small thing, a small incident, that happened almost every day in their lives, and soon they might forget.
But, to me, I was afraid that she would remember the false truth, and somehow, this worried me.
This thought haunted me for the rest of the day.
For a short moment, I was thinking about giving up, although I don't want to.
I remembered the last 5 months, which I been through every day like hell whenever I thought about Shi En.
It was after I'd met her, and I realized how much I loved her, thus only I can ignore my previous loved one.
If I have to forget her, I will have to suffer like last time.
I don't want to lose her in my mind, because I want to remember my feelings with her.
Maybe I was only paranoid or something for writing this entry.
Now, I only hope for I can still love her secretly,
or we can continue...as friends, at least.
