Depressed

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I am scared that she would misunderstand me for having Wendy as my girlfriend,
It's not like this would matter much because she doesn't know I'm loving her, or to be straightforward, she doesn't love me,
But still, I feel depressed when I think about that.
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This post is about her, again.

Today, when my teacher mentioned Wendy's name because she wanted her number,
all the sampat girls in the class, including her, teased and laughed like mad.
I know, they all thought that Wendy is my gf, just because every Saturday I walk with her to the tuition center.
Like, to them, it was a small thing, a small incident, that happened almost every day in their lives, and soon they might forget.
But, to me, I was afraid that she would remember the false truth, and somehow, this worried me.

This thought haunted me for the rest of the day.
For a short moment, I was thinking about giving up, although I don't want to.
I remembered the last 5 months, which I been through every day like hell whenever I thought about Shi En.
It was after I'd met her, and I realized how much I loved her, thus only I can ignore my previous loved one.
If I have to forget her, I will have to suffer like last time.
I don't want to lose her in my mind, because I want to remember my feelings with her.

Maybe I was only paranoid or something for writing this entry.
Now, I only hope for I can still love her secretly,
or we can continue...as friends, at least.

Short update

Just update here a bit.
Dun wanna neglect my blog for so long time
Later you guys thought I shut my blog long long time ago
=)

Life has become busy recently,
with those freakin folios and assignments
Plus that good-for-nothing exam.
Not that I care much about it,
just wanna prove myself to my classmates who always said that I no need study also can get high high marks.
I got study wan dammit!

Piano exam...at.....next year.
xD
In August.
Got exactly 1 year to prepare.
Still I scare as early as now liao
I crazy wan~ = =


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This is really an express and brief update
Nothing to say edi.
Bye.
x)